Joyful and Fearless

 

Can I be Fearless?

In 1992, 20th Century Fox handed director Barry Levinson a blank check. Robin Williams was at the height of his popularity, fresh off hits like "Good Morning, Vietnam," "Dead Poets Society," and the voice of the Genie in "Aladdin." The supporting cast included Joan Cusack, Michael Gambon, and Robin Wright. The film had stars, songs, a massive budget, and every ingredient that should have guaranteed a hit. 

Yet when "Toys" was released in December 1992, it opened in sixth place and limped away with just over $23 million at the box office, barely half its budget. Barry Levinson was even nominated for a Razzie Award for Worst Director. How could such a well-resourced project fail so spectacularly?

The answer lies in a perfect storm of missteps that began before cameras even rolled. Barry Levinson and his then-wife, Valerie Curtin, developed the screenplay in 1979, inspired by a newspaper article about Soviet naval intelligence studying American submarine toy models. The script itself became a victim of its own ambition. Despite twelve years of preparation, the screenplay seemed pulled in two directions. The producers kept describing it as "whimsical," while studios kept interpreting it as a dark comedy. 

Even Robin Williams seemed oddly restrained, playing it warm and cuddly when the film desperately needed his manic energy. The result was a film that critics found visually stunning, but the story was confused, and audiences simply couldn't connect with what they were watching. 

But there was one part of the movie I enjoyed: the song "Let Joy and Innocence Prevail," sung by Grace Jones.

I tell you of a girl, her husband was a soldier
Gone to war in some strange country far away
No word had come to her but the rumors of great battles fought
And dying in their thousands and the world full of fear
As the day would turn to evening she would light a pure white candle
And place it in a window bright from where it could be seen
As she placed it in the window softly without thinking
She said let this burning candle be a beacon
Let joy and innocence prevail
Let joy and innocence prevail
Believe that luck will never fail
Let joy and innocence prevail
And one night, asleep
She dreamed she saw her husband fall
In a great white cavalry charge
And waking in tears
She saw the candle burning in the window
She still had hope
And through the window
A man in the distance
But as he came closer
She saw he was a stranger
The stranger said, "I bring a message from a General
A captain has been wounded, his life hangs by a thread
He calls out your name and he wishes you to come to him
But the journey is a hard road and you may be afraid"
And she laughed and said, "No road could be too hard for I am fearless
A captain and a husband, I have gained this bright new day"
And she said with all her heart, she would fly to be beside him
And her love would heal his wounds, restore him to her
Let joy and innocence prevail
Let joy and innocence prevail
Believe that luck will never fail
Let joy and innocence prevail
Let joy and innocence prevail
Let joy and innocence prevail
Believe that luck will never fail
Let joy and innocence prevail
Let joy and innocence prevail!

"Toys" remains a fascinating cautionary tale about what happens when unlimited resources meet unclear vision. But there's another lesson in this film, one that Grace Jones captured perfectly in the film's haunting song. The film's central message, that we must choose joy and innocence over warfare and destruction, resonates today.

A decade ago, my own husband faced his own battle: triple bypass surgery, then a stroke two years later. The doctors wanted him to stay in the hospital for two weeks of physical therapy, but he wanted to come home. He complained about the noise that prevented him from sleeping, the lack of regular meals, and they hadn't started any physical therapy. I was fearless enough to sign those release and liability forms and take him home, even though he couldn't walk and I could barely get him out of the car. 

I became his personal physical therapist, watching YouTube videos and working with him all day. I put my programming projects on hold. In two days, he no longer needed the walker. In two weeks, he was walking to the mailbox. In two months, he was back at Disney, walking three miles a day. Like the woman in Grace Jones's song who said, "No road could be too hard for I am fearless," I learned that fearlessness and joy are not opposites; they are partners. You can be brave enough to defy the doctors, bold enough to bet on love and healing, while still holding tight to the joy and innocence that make life worth fighting for. "Toys" failed because it lost sight of that balance. My husband had lost the part of his brain that gave him balance and the doctors said he'd probably never walk again without a walker, but we've had a decade of travel and spending days at Disney. The walker still sits in the corner of the closet.

I'm writing the 4th book in my Kira and Henry series, War Games, while my husband is fighting his health battles again. When I write YA novels and screenplays, I use the Save the Cat! structure, and unlike Toys, I always know what my story is about and how it should be told. I become fearless and disciplined, but keep the joy of writing, because in life, in love, in the moments that truly matter, we cannot afford to lose it. It is time for me to be fearless again. And it is time to let joy and innocence prevail. 

Note: My April 2021 blog about my fearless granddaughter, Suby, tells the story of my great, great-grandmother on the Cook side of the family, who was truly fearless and went behind enemy lines to bring her captured husband home during the Civil War. 

The above picture is of my granddaughter, Tulaasi, on Mount Cook in the Ben Ohau Range of New Zealand's South Island. She and my oldest granddaughter, Chandra, fearlessly worked for years in Australia, New Zealand, and throughout Europe. My granddaughter, Vrinda, who is required to wear snake-proof boots to work as a field biologist in the Florida wilderness, is fearless. More about them in future blogs

I have been writing this monthly blog for over 6 years, every month - and I have so many stories I've yet to tell!

Happy Holidays to all of you!

How to Choose?

My manager is taking a few of my scripts to the Cannes Film Festival next month. The problem is that I have thirteen feature scripts ready to go, and she can only showcase three of them in her book that goes out to 500+ producers, studios, etc. How to choose? Thank goodness that is not my problem; she's the professional and will figure it out. I've been working with Alexia since February, and the first thing she does it send the scripts with the most marketability out for coverage. The person who does the coverage reads the script - maybe a few times and ranks it on a score of 1-10.  A score of  1-4 means to Pass on the script. A better score of 5-7 earns a Consider, and the best score of 8-10 - means that the executive should Read the script. I have two so far that have earned a 9 and four that are 7s. Three more are on the way to getting coverage. At first, I thought a 7 was a low score since I was thinking 70% on a test, but it is actually pretty good to be a "Consider" and outstanding to be a 9. 

The next process is to get a professional pitch deck created. The first thing that I do is to structure out the script and write a pitch. That sometimes causes some rewriting because when I'm telling the story in the form of a pitch - something might stand out as being in the wrong place. This pitch is then put into Canva, and off it goes to a designer who makes it look amazing. My pitch deck guru is Annalisa Giolo Dunker of https://www.betterearthproductions.com/. You can see her work on my new website - SandraJerome.com.

You might wonder how I can have so many unsold scripts. Easy - I've been writing for a long time, but only been a full-time screenwriter for a year. If you've been following me, you might remember that I retired two years ago, so what have I been doing for the other year?  After I retired, I thought I wanted to be a novelist. I spent a year learning how to write kidlit - middle-grade and young adult books. I wrote three of them, joined SCBWI and attended seminars and workshops. I started querying agents and publishers and did get a few requests for my books. But one problem - the publishing business is extremely slow. A typical wait time is six months before you get a response to a query - if ever. That doesn't stop me - I'm working on my 4th novel, but I remembered fondly that when I first started writing screenplays, there were many, many contests to enter. I'd get immediate feedback on my work. Plus, I needed a hobby while I was waiting be be a famous novelist. What do I like to do in my spare time?  You guessed it - storytelling!  There is no easier way to tell a story than a screenplay. It is like writing computer programming (my trained profession.) Lots of instructions to the talent and dialogue. 

I trained professionally to be a screenwriter two decades ago. I graduated from UCLA's advanced screenwriting program but then tragedy struck, and I had to abandon my dream of writing movies. Those who know me well know what happened and what I accomplished - including helping to raise my four granddaughters. Now that "my watch" is over and I'm writing full-time - the timing is perfect for a great 2025. The existing IP concept is huge. Studios prefer to reduce their risk by greenlighting a project based on something already "out there."  I have books already published and now I'm writing a book based on my most highly-ranked screenplay, Blood Moon Wolf. My "job" and hobby have joined together.  In addition, producers also want projects based on material in the public domain, and I'm working on a historical screenplay based on a book by Lady Churchill, Jennie Jerome, Keith's fourth cousin, twice removed. I'm also writing my 2nd Christmas movie and I'm thinking that might be my passion - I love Christmas. The acorn didn't fall from the tree because my mother was Christmas-crazy. I miss her so much.

Getting back to my huge inventory of completed projects, during the past two decades, I flew hundreds of thousands of miles and writing my screenplays and novels kept me company. I might be stuck in the middle of nowhere, far away from my family - but my characters were always with me - even when I was alone. I could drop my mind into their world and get away from the yucky hotel, cramped airplane, or stressful job. Then, I'd enter scripts into contests, get feedback, then rewrite, rewrite, rewrite. I read recently that quantity does equate to quality when it comes to screenplays. If you keep writing and rewriting – you get better. I know so many screenwriters who only have 1-2 scripts, and they are precious to them. They only want certain producers and platforms to take on their projects and expect millions. I don't think that - I want my work to be aired - streaming, network, turned in TV - even YouTube! I plan to write 100 screenplays by the time I'm a hundred. Based on the ten thousand outliner hours that I've spent so far, I'm on the way there, and I have one sold and in production, with another two being optioned and a manager taking a few to Cannes. Better get back to writing - lots more to say before next month. Here's my IMDB page - Sandi Jerome

Right Tool for the Right Job

 I was a daddy's girl growing up. I'd follow my dad around like a puppy dog and learned how to graft a tree branch, change the oil in our cars, and even castrate cattle.  My dad also always said "The right tool for the right job."  I learned when to use a hammer vs. a mallet and I won't go into the castration tools!

When it comes to screenwriting, I'm a huge Final Draft lover.  I have three different licenses; one for my Windows laptops (they let you install on 2,) and another for my MacPro that was generously given us by Final Draft during the Native American Media Alliance Writer's Lab Fellowship in June 2023, and I recently bought the new mobile version for my iPad.  I like this version because it is simple to put in night mode when I take the iPad to bed to read a cohort's script or do a final proofing of my own.

I put all my scripts on Google Drive, so easy to pull up the latest revision - no matter if I'm using Windows or Mac. I prefer the Mac version when I have the script read to me because the speed is much better than the Windows version.  I've been using the Windows version for over 20 years - upgrading from Final Draft 6 - all the way up to Final Draft 12 now - so I'm more familiar with the screen layout. I like the structure of Blake Snyder's Saving the Cat - and I normally start that Template - Beat View, then when I get done outlining, it is easy to Insert, Send to the Script and then start writing.

Final Draft wasn't the first screenwriting software that I learned.  I attended UCLA in early 2000 and selected MovieMaster 2000 as my first tool.  After a few years, I switched to Final Draft because it seemed like more people in my class used that.  You might wonder why I haven't been more successful if I've been writing screenplays for over 20 years.  That is because after finishing UCLA and writing a few scripts, we had a family tragedy and I had to stop writing and focus on my technology business.  For the next couple of decades, we helped raise our grandaughters and earned enough to support two families. 

 Fast forward to last year, when I sold my software company and turned back to screenwriting.  I started learning again how to write and rewrite and entered contests.  I've done well and now have quite a few scripts ready to be produced.  I'm in the pitching phase - learning how to sell my screenplays.  I won a second NAMA - Native American Media Alliance Fellowship that starts at the end of August 2023 and goes through November.  My next feature screenplay will be started from scratch and I'll have the input of my cohorts and instructor.  My first step is to create 3 pitches and I've asked my family and friends to rate them to help me pick the one I want to write about.  Hopefully, by November, I'll have a great script and pitch it at Skinfest.   https://nama.media/sandi-jerome/

Getting back to the "right tool for the right job," I'm also learning how to use a Mac to make my YouTube videos.  This month was my first using iMovie instead of Movavi for Windows which was getting slower and slower and difficult to move videos and photos from my iPhone to Windows.  I was considering changing to an Android phone to make things easier, but in the end, I only needed to learn iMovie.  One thing that I've learned is once you've learned a type of software, it was pretty easy to switch to another one. I easily switched from MovieMaster to Final Draft and now, I've learned iMovie after years of using Movavi.  I'll use Final Draft for Mac to have my script read to me and the iPad version to read late at night.  The right tool for the right job.  I'm going to print this and send it to my dad - I know he'll be proud.

Here is my latest YouTube about our trip in April to Disney's Castaway Cay. I've been behind, but after changing to a Mac, I should be able to get these done quicker.
https://youtu.be/5wI44tPY-KU

Doing What You Love

 

My dad always said that if you can find something that you love to do, you’ll never need to retire.  That happened to me last year.  I sold my software company and started a new career in writing.  It wasn’t really “new” since I wrote technical manuals, computer help guides, and magazine articles over the years for work – but now….I could write whatever I liked.

I tried to have a writing “job” two decades ago and completed UCLA’s screenwriting and advanced screenwriting program.  I wrote a dozen screenplays and got my first gig of writing a screenplay for an animation studio and my first check of $1200.  Wow!  But then, tragedy struck our family and we needed to  help raise and support our four young granddaughters. Financial worries crept up, and I had to abandon that dream of being a writer and take on some pretty hefty responsibilities as I ran my software company as we got our granddaughters to soccer, swimming, dentists and doctors.

One of my first screenplays was based on a woman I met at an assisted living center, Lily.  At 86, she joked that she was “in God’s waiting room,” and often told me that she was ready to die.  I would see her weekly when I would help the elderly send and receive emails from their families.  It was a volunteer program that we developed called Web on Wheels.  I would set up my computer in the activity room and envied the residents with so much time on their hands to do crafts, play bingo, and even learn to dance!

Time for Lily was a First-Round Finalist in Script Magazine Open Door Contest back in 2000 – 23 years ago.  I’ve rewritten it 19 times – including the most recent one after getting coverage.  Now, I think it is finally close to being “screen-ready,” and I’m submitting it again to various contests. If you’d like to read it, here is the link.  https://sandijerome.com/free/TimeforLilyComedyRW.pdf

The real Lily that inspired me died in 2006 at 92, and now I’m closer to Lily’s age when we first met, than to the “young” character, Megan, on who I based my hectic life.  But today, I am truly doing what I love – writing.

I recently met someone who appears to also be doing what he loves.  The Festival of the Arts at Disney’s Epcot is my least favorite festival – with the Food and Garden being my first choice.  At the arts festival, the food is often “deconstructed,” – but this year, they had a hummingbird cake and soft-shell crab – that were amazing.  Along with not being big foodie lovers of elevated cuisine, we also don’t appreciate fine art that much.  But we’re huge fans of Grogu, and The Mandalorian and this print caught Keith’s eye.  We bought it for $89 – which after our annual passholder discount and tax, was $85.  Then, the Disney cast member told us that the artist was back in Germany at the Thomas Kinkade booth and would sign our print.

Well…that was quite a signing.  Not only did I get it signed, but I got to pick out what was on the back and I picked Yoda.  It was also a special treat for the artist Dirk Wunderlich to explain to me why Grogu cannot be Yoda as a baby.  Dirk is about seven years older than me and is a Thomas Kinkade legacy artist who has done images and logos for Disney.  We talked about my ties to Anaheim (my great-grandmother once owned orange groves where Disneyland now stands) and my hometown of Escondido and why I now live in Clermont – at 300 feet.  He has selected a home in Northern California at 400 feet! We’re both trying to avoid death by earthquakes or hurricanes/global warming floods.

I would imagine, at about 75 years old, that Dirk can live anywhere or do anything, but he spends long days at Epcot, drawing on the back of his prints – for free – and talking to people like me.  He appears to truly be truly doing what he loves and will probably never retire.

Visit my website at sandracookjerome.com to read my screenplays or books - or if you want to buy a book, there are pictures and links on my website. I hope you are doing what you love!

Here's a link to my YouTube about my visit with Dirk Wunderlich at Epcot - https://youtu.be/oeq9eSz-yos